(That was for all of you sitting on the edge of your chairs waiting to hear how my 10k went.)
It was definitely warmer than anyone had expected; the temperature was about 85 degrees at 9am. This made the run quite a bit more difficult. Not to mention the hills. Oh boy were those killer.
I ended up finishing in at 82 minutes.
Yes, that sounds terrible slow, even to me, but keep in mind the conditions. Most everyone was running at a significantly slower pace this morning, so I was still satisfied with my slower than usual time.
My 10k isn't really what I wanted to talk about today, though. I had a more substantial topic in mind.
For the last 7 or 8 years or so, I have carefully developed a very unhealthy response to stress and fatigue: I overeat. When I say I overeat, I mean to the point of feeling very stuffed and often almost sick. When there is something that upsets me or frustrates me, I will sit in the kitchen for an hour or so, walking back and forth between the table and the refrigerator, consuming 1,000 calories or more in that time.
I know that I'm not the only one who experiences this, and I know it is a fairly common disorder. It is difficult to come to terms with, and even more difficult to deal with.
Today, because of being tired, I found myself weak. And I gave into my stress response.
I intend to work through this with prayer and careful planning of meals and things. If anyone has any other suggestions, feel free to leave them.
I'm sorry that I haven't delved much into the emotion behind this response, but I feel it is the action itself that I would really like to stop.
